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Romania in October 2023.
In the middle of the night on
a poorly illuminated street in
Bucharest.
Anka, Christiane and I have
just come from the strip
club Lucky Love.
How many hours is it?
So, it is now half three about.
The moment. It is half three in
the night.
We have seen so much in
this club.
We need to get rid of
it, talk to the microphone.
We could not take
it inside.
But from the front.
We jump back about
an hour and a half.
The Anker is at the Gentleman's
Night Club.
And the door opens.
Loud music is coming to us.
We got in and the man on
the stairs, the barkeeper,
was there.
What did he say, because
he had spoken to
you in Romanian?
I asked him if women
were allowed in and he said,
yes, women should also
be allowed in.
Then there is a stripper
in the corner.
Long brown hair, curved figure,
pale ta, bright
blue strap corset.
She looks like just twenty
and plunges straight on
us in extremely high-hack We
call her here in the
podcast Ella, but that’
s not her real name.
Ella looks at us in such
a mixture of total
surprise and pure joy.
We started dancing and
were glad that women
were coming in.
Yes, she said.
It is from girls.
Girls, to be exact.
Girls, finally women in the club.
For the first time, there is
a total relief in me.
It looks like we are
welcome here.
I look around and my pulse
is going up.
The room is empty, apart
from us and the staff.
Anka, Christiane and I are
the first guests that night.
We sit on a long, black
leather sofa.
I am next to Christiane, Anka
in front of us.
Ella asks us what we
want to drink, and
the barkeeper goes
to work.
Gradually all three striptease
women who are serving
today are sitting around us.
Because we didn’t run
to them, so they sat
on us.
They don’t really sit on
us, but almost.
Ella is just going to go and
tell us that she is from Sweden,
just recently here in Bucharest
and that she doesn’t
do that with the striping
for so long.
Please understand if not
everything is perfect.
Okay, it is interesting.
These beautiful young women
there, the Swedes and the Danes,
what is it that strikes the people
here, why do they do that?
These two here in a Romanian
strip club, which
is unusual.
We have a guess that the
two may be yoga students
from Scandinavia.
There are some yoga schools that
belong to Atman.
In Denmark, they also have their
training to become yoga and
tantrology teachers.
Scandinavian schools are designed
to address especially young people
– including with such things
as sexy dance training.
So while we are in the club
to talk with the Danish
and Swedish, the Romanian goes
to a white podest in the
middle of the room and
starts dancing on the bar.
Only for us.
I pretend I’m excited
about it, but in my head
is the only question, How
do we get out of the
women, why are they here?
As unnoticed as possible.
I think we can’t just
ask you that.
I still think.
And that’s exactly what Christine
does with Ella.
The whole story is full of
deep talks.
And why do you do that?
What fascinates you about it?
Now I have to laugh at it.
But in the club, when Christiane
started asking
so directly, I was
just scared.
For the sake of it, now we
will all fly up, now they pick
up their bodyguards.
No, no, the legend
was mine.
I have a side within me that
is looking for something.
Christiane tells the striptease
women that there is such a longing
in her, that she is somehow
a seeking woman.
And that pulls.
The women begin to tell Christiane
about themselves.
This is a soul captain.
Toxic Tantra, a podcast
by Christiane Havranek and
me, Katja Peisen-Petersen.
Episode 4 Lucky Love.
We are in this Strip
Club because we want to
find out if women from Atman yoga
schools work here.
In general, this trip here
in Romania, the country where
MISA was founded, is
about finding out what
all the women who come here
to yoga school from
many different
countries in Europe
and the world are doing?
Are you really just deepening
tantra here or is there something
else behind it?
Now, at three in the night,
on the way from the Strip Club
back to our hotel, Anka and
I, Christiane, can finally
ask what Ella and the Danes
have told her exactly, because
we both have only heard
a handful of it.
Christiane is talking about Ella.
She is 28 years old and is from Sweden.
I talked to her longer
and more intensely.
The most interesting thing about
it was that they started
with yoga.
They do yoga and Tantra
Yoga too.
You are completely convinced
of this whole lifestyle.
They said it was a
lifestyler.
And they do it seven
hours a day.
7 hours of yoga a day.
We must immediately think
of the outbound
women we talked to,
Liz and Natalie.
They also did yoga
for hours.
But it goes even further.
The words spirituality are lacking.
You talked about spirituality.
You talked about healing.
So heal it.
Let us think
of green cakes.
Signs indicate that there is
apparently a connection to
the yoga movement.
I have always talked about
secret.
Secret is yes!
Every time you ask something.
Both are BEM, BEM.
Heck, Heck and Heck.
A reference to the yoga
movement will follow soon.
That was something I thought
about, I must
definitely remember when
they said, express your femininity,
because that is also
so totally of wording.
That’s what they said
at the beginning, why they
like to do it, with
this wisdom.
This theory from the yoga
school has also been told
by Bivolarus, a former lawyer,
in the last episode that
women who go to strip are
supposedly told that they
can develop their
femininity.
And then she started
telling me how she
got there.
She said I started
talking to you like
you were my sister.
This has happened to me
somehow now, but it actually
works, you have to
buy me a drink and
then you can talk
to me and then there
is a show.
I bought her the drink.
Christiane bought Ella a
Piña Colada.
Suddenly we have Ellas naked
breasts right and left of
our nose tips and she gives
Christiane and me a
private dance.
We really just
want to talk to her.
But it won’t happen any more,
because suddenly new guests
come into the club, three men.
Ella goes on.
She then, unfortunately,
went to the other table and, I
think, promised herself
more by the two men who were
still sitting there.
They then dressed them
up and then they went
away with them and then
they gave them quite certain
massages. The massages.
In Lucky Love, women also give
Tantra massages.
We asked where you
learned this?
One of the three women calls
us a kind of massage school,
the Esoteric Massage Academy.
I remember that name.
Then we leave the club.
We feel that at the end
of the day for us, we are
not getting any
more information.
A strip club with a spiritual
touch.
A club where striptease
women unfold their femininity
and pass on the concept
of sacred sexuality
to others, to ignorants.
I must say I felt really
uncomfortable.
I was also looked at.
But I found it so crisp
to watch that in my eyes
this young Swedish woman
who was so glad that actually
women come to her and watch
her show that somehow so
was so warm and then so
also so open and so I mean
yes I practice this now
all just I do this not
long and was totally pleased
that someone has watched this
and still scratched and
at the same time I was
always thinking so what more
you do because we
have after our club
trip the feeling we
could
strengthen our guess.
We think these women are
here in the yoga movement.
We could put a lot of green hikes.
And we find another
indication on this.
This is Esoteric Massage Academy.
One of the women
said she learned to
massage there.
This academy has overlaps
of personnel.
So, we have a lot of
clues, but the right evidence,
the evidence we do not have.
None of the women in the club
has made it clear that I
was sent to strip by the
yoga movement.
The press spokeswoman of
the Romanian yoga school Misa
will tell us later, it may already be
that individual yoga students
strip as camgirls work or
give Tantra massages.
If, then voluntarily and as
a private person.
This is not managed by Misa.
That women do all this as
karma yoga, express your femininity
in the service of the yoga school,
that the press spokeswoman
can’t imagine, she
says in the interview.
I have never been to the Esoteric
Massage Academy.
Strange, we find it, because on
Instagram Misa currently follows
this academy.
The women from the academy
did not respond to
our request.
We also have the Lucky Love
Club.
And her answer sounds
a bit crazy.
To our questions, so connections
to Mass, stripes and massages
as karma yoga, they give
us a simple answer.
No is.
In large letters.
The next morning we sit together
again, Christiane,
Anka and I.
This time in the car.
She is driving us out of
town, so she is at least trying to.
It is terrible, there is chaos.
Yes, I cannot go back.
So, to be honest, I don’
t know how we get out
of here.
We want to get out of Bucharest
and to the Black Sea.
We head to Kosti Nešt in a
Romanian beach resort.
It is not only visited by normal
holidaymakers in the summer,
but it will breathe there to the
pilgrimage site of
the yoga movement.
Thousands of yogis from
different countries have been flowing
there for decades.
This is where the Yogi
International Esoteric
Summer Camp takes place
for five weeks.
It is organized by the Romanian yoga
school Misa.
With courses,
with events, with messages by
Gregorian Bivularo
via speakers.
And with a special assembly
that appears to have cult
status.
The Yogis meet outside on a large
field on the outskirts and
perform their spiral
meditation there.
Thousands of people form
a giant spiral hand
in hand and meditate.
On the way to Kostinesch
we read again how to participate
in the yoga camp.
For registration, two photos in
the format of 10-15 cm will be submitted.
Face and half profile in
a swimsuit, two-part for
ladies, on which the body as a
whole can be seen.
They must be up to date,
taken after the 1. June 2023.
And the conditions for participation
are also a negative HIV
and a negative syphilis test.
This yoga camp, so clearly,
is not a normal yoga camp.
And Kostinesht is a special
place, practically the heart
of the yoga movement.
We want to see it with
our own eyes, even though
now it is autumn and the
great rush is over.
We want to talk to people
and we want to look at a
house where things
are supposed to happen that
are strictly secret even
within the yoga movement.
They are not part of
the official summer camp program.
In this house, selected
women are to meet
to be trained in sexy.
At least that’s what Natalie feels,
because she was one of
those chosen women.
So, this house is in Kostanes, where
this summer camp takes place.
And the Veluza is a relatively
large house with many so
small rooms, where
the whole girls then
somehow all sleep together
on a mattress.
Natalie is the outbound woman
who joined the yoga movement
during an Indian trip and
now lives in Thailand.
And she leads us to this Veluza,
because there is no official
information about it.
Google Street
View has a video.
Let’s look at that
in the car.
This is the Veluza, this building.
The building next to here.
This is from the school too.
They call it the Lotus Hotel.
Veluza is a hotel.
In one street in Kostinesz
there are several buildings where
the jogs go in and out especially
in the summer.
And Nathalie will take
us into this world.
But until we get there,
in just three hours drive,
we have a little
time to tell you something
else.
Something that is also somehow
related to the Wiluza and is
practically a kind of
prelude to it.
These are special groups,
only for women.
These groups are called
Shakti groups after the
Indian goddess.
There are also in Germany.
We know this because Liz
was inside, the outbound woman
Christiane has in.
So such preparation steps
were actually the photos
in the bikini, which I then
let make and by stick
elsewhere was sent.
And the next step after these things
really came with the invitation
to the Shakti group.
Liz tells us about this group,
where she attended
a school of the
German Academy
of Traditional Yoga.
In underwear sensual and there
were quite a lot of exercises
that had a lot
to do with lingams, so
penis, so to say that around
us is Shiva energy and we should
imagine that it is a Lingam
that it is a penis and we
did right such alleged mudras
and yoga poses where
it was all about moving
the hips, moving sensibly,
having a certain orientation
and it was always about
opening up to the male
Shiva energy
and how sex training
so.
Although she is convinced of the teaching,
Read does not feel comfortable
in the group.
This on-sexy making is just
nothing for you.
She has a strange feeling.
Yes, and in the Shakti
group there is a feeling
of it, if
I don’t do it now, if
I question it now, if I vote against
it, if I find the doof,
if I don’t get here
in some way full of sexy
clothes, then I’m doing
something wrong.
Then I am brother, then I am
in the ego, then I am fully
attached, then I am fully
the game destroyer.
So there was such a double
message from the way, you can
be here as you are.
But maybe I’m, but
if you don’t do
what we say, you’
re shit.
For Liz, it feels like
she can no longer trust
her own intuition.
This reminds me of Natalia.
She also told us that at
some point she no longer
trusted herself.
Red flag, a sectarian symbol.
Liz hopes that with all these
courses she will continue
on her tantric path to
enlightenment.
So she continues, despite
the bad feeling.
He also takes a very special
dance course.
Where women have
been taught how to be
sensibly sexy, for
example, even on a bar.
Where you were also taught how to touch
someone with such a very exciting sexy
dance, if, for example, you are a person
who is a great fan of the dance.
Someone is sitting on the chair.
Sometimes I also ask Liz.
Why the whole?
Who is the perfect
shakti?
She recalls a meeting
to which only those who
had been in the yoga
school for a while were
invited.
And then we are back with Gregorian
Bivoularou.
I felt that I was
conditioned
to idealize him
badly.
For half an hour or so, you
watched a slide show of
Greig’s photos all the
time, with such a really
sharp idealized music.
And you were told that, so to
speak, you are channelled by him
to the energies that
will purify you all the
time and transform your energy
system and continue
to accompany and prepare
you on your path.
But it was just psychological
manipulation that you
are being made full somehow
like such a dog hot on him.
And that is just so disgusting.
We would like to know what
the German Academy of Traditional
Yoga says about all this and
send them an interview
question.
But we are being comforted
for several weeks.
The chairman writes to us that
he has used the time
to meditate and apologizes
for the delay.
It is still a matter of
decision whether to do
an interview or not.
Kosti is located on
the Romanian Black Sea coast.
Not long and we are there.
We are looking forward to this place.
Because these training sessions
in Sexy are supposed to
have taken place here in Viluza,
in the house we
are going to.
But the whole thing was to be
even more special, even more secret,
with the creme de la creme of the
women of the yoga
movement, with women like Nathalie.
I mean, the first time
I actually heard of a
Villuzza was already
in India.
So there we had actually
told my teacher, oh yes,
and the villa, that’s so great
because there all the
girls go and then we’re
all together.
Nathalie learns that one can
only visit the Villuzza on special
invitation and even
after several years.
But then everything goes very quickly.
We told you two in
a row.
Natalie arrived in Bucharest in 2020.
She learns that her boyfriend
Jasper has another girl
next to her.
A woman from school.
Instead of separating,
Natalie has tried to overcome
her jealousy.
Just like your yoga teachers
told you.
But it did not work.
That’s why at some point Natalie
wrote a letter to Gregorian Bivoularo
asking him for advice.
Added another photo of yourself.
Nathalie now tells us that
her guru has responded to
her pretty quickly.
Also in a letter.
So, at least, she is told
that the letter comes from him.
She doesn’t even get
him in her own hand, but
she’ll be read by her
yoga teacher.
He praised me so high up
to heaven, practically.
I was so good, and I
have such great qualities.
And that I am so beautiful
and have such a beautiful
smile, that
was also a mega thing.
Nathalie will later call
this letter just
the Love Bombing Letter.
That I can so much practically
and that I have
now opened myself to
him that this is
the best thing ever
is now.
It is madness, Nathalie thinks.
Her guru says how beautiful she is.
He gives her gifts,
a dress, body oils,
herbal mixtures.
She gets an invitation to
the villa.
Wow, that’s mega because
I was allowed to stay in
Viluza all August, even
in the first year when
I stopped there.
Usually it only lasts
two weeks.
I was there all August.
It was also very
special.
It is a special honor to be
given to Nathalie.
She only has to do one thing.
She has to take
a holy oath.
And promise a Mieser yoga teacher
that she will
never reveal anything
about what is happening
in Viluza.
Nathalie does it.
She swore on the Bible.
You get zero information about what it is.
At the beginning, when you are invited,
you will receive a
letter with your invitation, which you
will have to take with you to Viluza.
And then in that letter is
then all these testimonials
of other women in it, who then stop
saying, oh, that was so great
and that was the best
thing I’ve ever done and
so on.
Nathalie only reads that this
Wiluza is practically life-changing.
She has no idea what
happens to her.
Today she knows that in Wiluza
the women are apparently prepared.
Meeting with her Guru, Gregorian
Bivoularo.
We are here, we are
in Kostinescht.
Let’s look at the video
that Natalie made
for us.
If you go down the
street, that’s all from
school, that’s practically
the aschram.
In this aschram today a
school event takes place,
a yoga camp for several
days.
So we read this on the
website of Misa in Romania.
We will not participate,
because we did not submit
any bikini photos in advance.
That would have been a prerequisite,
again.
You can see the sea flashing
up and no people walking
on the streets.
The tourists are already away
at this time.
Christiane looks out of the car
window into the hideous emptiness
of this place.
I wonder if we
are really journalists
today.
So I am slowly getting
very nervous and nervous.
Because you ask yourself,
what do these three women
want here in this deserted
place now?
I am also getting nervous now.
Are we being disclosed today?
So we turn off into a small
side street now.
We should be getting closer
to the Veluzza.
I keep the microphone
and shoot.
That is now 130 meters.
Okay, here is she.
Little Villa of Natalie.
We pass by the Wiluza.
But before we can look at them
closer, we must go
on, because someone is running
in front of us on the other
side of the street.
A young woman with red
hair pulls a green
suitcase behind her.
This woman must have been in the camp.
The woman was in the camp,
because she was on the left.
We just passed
by.
There are a lot of cars here.
So you are still there?
You are still there, exactly.
The Yogi in their camp.
We continue to get out of the
small street and park
around the corner.
The small street is completely
empty.
As we walk past the Ashroom Frame,
we hear spherical music coming
through the open windows.
Probably the yogis are meditating.
A few minutes later we are
in front of the Veluza.
The Veluza is a glossy building,
already older, with white-flowered
grandmother curtains on the windows.
But we do not see much more.
The whole house
is closed by a green,
blank fence.
On a sign is a sign on a
Romanian private land.
We do not offer accommodation.
There is no name sign and
bell, only a code you
need to enter.
The villa looks empty,
all the windows are closed.
With Natalia it was different.
It’s summer and the Misa
Summer Camp is on its way.
Kostinäscht is full of Erdmann
supporters and there is also
a lot going on in Wiluza.
Nathalie stands with her
luggage in front of this
beige building and she sees the women
in and out there.
She presented herself and presented
her invitation.
I was nervous. So because I didn’t know
what was going on, because nobody
told me anything about what
we were actually doing.
Definitely yes, I am nervous.
Somewhere she had noticed before
that in Wieluze everything
was completely free
and loose.
But instead of Woodstock feeling,
Nathalie expects to do
some hassle-work.
You get there and
then you have to
do hours of paperwork.
As in an office, she gets super
many forms pressed into
her hand.
If you have
to read the rules three times, you
have to write down the rules.
The rules that apply
in the Wieluza.
You can’t sleep outside
if you don’t want
to sleep in the
Wieluza.
One night
you have to tell me.
You must attend all the lectures.
Yes, super strictly
Nathalie fills out other forms.
Name, place of residence, their
current yoga and tantraya and so on.
And then it goes.
Someone takes a camera and
targets it on Nathalie.
She is asked to take pictures of herself
so her guru can read her aura.
Nathalie knows it, but this
time it is more extreme,
she tells us.
It was all completely naked.
So before, it was always
like bikini for camps and so on.
It was completely naked.
This is the first
time you are filmed.
and naked.
Natalie definitely wants to go
into this exclusive villa, of which
so many in school speak
so positively.
Do you take nude photos for that?
Should you film naked?
Natalie breathed deep
and took a picture.
But after that, she still
cannot enter the Wieluza.
You have to answer one
last question first.
answer correctly.
Want to meet the Goh?
So so.
The only answer that
is okay is of course yes.
Because when you get close to
a cross, you
will also be thrown out directly.
Was it told you so?
No, that wasn’t told us, but
that’s a girl who was there
with me, so happen.
And exactly, so that was
the thing, then there’s the
question, how do you feel when
you’re thinking about
meeting your guru?
There are then such things,
somehow so excited,
blissful, ecstatic, so that.
And exactly, so there are only
positive things, you can’t cross
anything negative.
And then you have to specify
time periods if you
have time to meet him.
That is what Natalie remembers.
She really doesn’
t want to meet the Guru.
This old man, to whom
she has already meditated
and written a letter,
still has no
proper reference.
She just doesn’t feel any
connection to him.
She wants to get into that velvet.
And so on?
So I crossed years.
Do it simply.
She says she wants to meet
Bivularo.
And then I put those
times super, super late.
So, next year some time.
Let Natalia go in.
I mean, it was super cool in itself,
because of course it was all the
girls you knew a
little bit about now, and then
keep them all together.
With Nathalie, there are
about 40 women
from different countries.
So she tells it.
Many Romanian women, some people
Nathalie already knows from Bucharest,
but also Germans,
Scandinavians, English
women, Australians.
Each room is a mattress.
We had to pay for our
food and nothing,
so everything was free.
It wasn’t that we
were now locked up.
So women go to the sea every
day, to their beach, further
away from the normal tourist
beach, harder, more natural.
But in the morning, noon
and afternoon they should return
to the camp and take lectures.
It was interesting to
learn all these horrors.
It was really
great even for women.
In these lectures, for example,
women learn how to better
manage their jealousy
or how to suppress
their period.
She is bad, Natalie learns, because she
is taking away one’s energy.
Where we should evolve
as women was this thing,
that we would become more practically
like Mahasakti.
Mahasakti is a god in female
form.
That was
where we should
communicate.
Women also get feedback
on their
performance.
So to the naked photos
and videos they took to
get into the Veluza
at all.
You will then receive
a personal message
from Bivoularo in response
to your videos and photos.
Nathalie is in her room.
It knocks on the door
and someone presses her a
small note in the hand, allegedly
by Grigorian Bivoularou
personally.
What does Greg have about your photo?
Video said?
I don’t believe anything, nothing negative
or anything.
So I think I really got
out of that way, but then
it was also with all, so many other
emails that were around me,
who then often
got these answers so according
to the motto, yes, if we had
a stomach, that
didn’t go at all.
So it was always said,
so yes, you need to somehow
do more yoga and somehow
do more exercises on
your chakra here in the
belly so that it will
somehow harmonize again.
So that was the case, as you
were told, so according to the
motto, yes, you have to make
your breasts bigger.
Whatever we were told,
we can do this by somehow
working on energy
and so on.
All clear, thanks for the tip.
That is so normal. That is
the thing.
No one then takes this
up as an insult or something,
but is so, yes, of course
I have to get rid of
my stomach.
of course.
To doubt that and say, old,
what kind of one he is
that he tells me now,
my breasts have to get
bigger, that didn’t go at all.
It would have been completely
forbidden.
Women are supposed to get
skills in the Wiluza to
transform their bodies.
And they are shown
how to be the
perfect lovers, says
Natalie.
Together they watch porn
and practice for the great
tantric ritual that is supposed
to bring them to enlightenment.
Yes, according to the teaching,
the women can also quietly make
love with one another,
so they call it.
Men do not, but
women do.
For Natalie, it all feels
like a training
camp for a sex goddess.
The press spokeswoman of Misa
will tell us later in the
interview that she doesn’t
know a lot or can’t comment.
The oath on the Bible, the house
rules, the naked shootings.
Per some have had
certain experiences,
but then please prove
it.
That Bivoularo gets photos
sent from the women, they
disagree.
And in Misa lessons, it is also
about eroticism, but you are
against porn movies.
They call them erotic films,
which would also be shown at the
camp, but allegedly without the camp
participants’ sexual activities.
Here in Kostinescht
in autumn 2023 it is dark.
But Anka, Christiane and
I definitely want to talk to
the people on the ground.
We want to know how they
perceive the yogis who have
held summer camps here for decades.
And that’s why we are now
going to the village of Kostinescht.
Because there is nothing going
on on the streets of the village,
we almost want to turn around
again, but then we see a
single illuminated house,
a small supermarket.
The supermarket is actually
a small cream store.
The front side is brightly illuminated.
Three men are out there drinking
alcohol, two are middle-
aged and one is about 70.
He is already quite tight.
While Christiane and I
feel slightly deplaced
here, Anka runs to
the dog.
A huge cattle is there in the middle
of the walkway in front of the
crème magasin.
Our animal-loving Anka
bows down to him,
stitches him, tets him,
snoops him.
We are winning the respect
of the villagers.
And then Anka wins her
respect.
The man to whom the
dog belongs is just as huge
and important to us.
He owns the store.
He sits behind his box
and looks interested at
our blue BR micro.
He asks us to remove the microphone.
The supermarket owner is looking
closely at it.
Only when he sees that no
red light is shining
on him, he begins to talk
to us.
He presents himself as Luca.
We talk to him about Misa,
about Bivolaru, about the
Yoga Camp.
What we hear from Luca is
very interesting.
So interesting that we are
quite sorry not
to be allowed to take.
We have anka.
Anka quats Luka in Romanian
from the side.
And then Luka says,
OK, turn on the microphone again.
Later, Anka told us that
she was provoking Luka
a little.
Such
a strong man with such
a big dog, how can
be afraid to talk about
the yoga school.
Luca seems to be thinking
a little about what to say.
He says yoga is
good in itself.
But that with sex
goes too far.
How do you know this?
I have lived here for 42
years and know everything
about the country
of Kostinetsch.
I live for the camp, about 100
meters, 25 years.
I go and I pay.
You go to town and I look
at you.
What did you see there? The Porn.
A woman with five or ten men.
Are you watching porn or
shooting?
No to.
This will be difficult with
English.
Luca wants
to describe it with his hands
first, then Anca helps us.
Luca remembers it all
25 years ago.
We cannot prove this,
but we know it.
The outdoors told us
the same thing.
We go home, so back
to our hotel, to Bucharest.
Later in the evening we will
let the experiences from Kosti
Neszt sack.
We come into reflection.
We laugh a lot here.
But what it is about
here, the many women who have
just done yoga and then
at some point found
themselves in this Veluza,
what they experienced,
that is not to laugh
at all.
Nathalie for example.
She got the impression
that most women were prepared
for one thing in
this Veluza alone.
On a meeting with Gregorian Bivoularo,
just like you.
Do you remember the form that
Nathalie had to fill out at the very
beginning, even before
she had to get into
the Viluza?
Want to meet the Guru?
The only answer that
is okay is of course yes.
As Nathalie’s time in Viluza
is almost over, there
is a meeting with the
women who organize
the Viluza.
And then they talk about
how it is to meet
the spiritual teacher.
That all of this is super great
and that this stop is super
important for our spiritual
evolution and then they talked
about their experiences,
of course, so under the
motto that it was absolutely
life-changing.
Nathalie heard it all.
In fact, she didn’t even have
any interest in Bivolaru before
Wiluza.
But now something has changed.
Even several weeks Wiluza
have not changed the problems
with her and Jasper.
The other woman is still there.
And Natali’s jealousy, despite
the many yoga exercises
and meditations.
Natalie feels nothing
she tries to help
her go on.
It was super, super bad.
It was really, really difficult
for me.
Natalie is desperate.
She wants to save her
relationship.
But how? What else should she do?
Natalie is looking and looking
and looking for a solution,
a saving straw.
And when she then hears that
such a meeting with Bivou Laro
can apparently change everything
in life, that
such a meeting can make
her tantrically enlightened,
Nathalie thinks,
maybe that is the possibility
that everything will be
fine again at the end.
Because I was so finished with the
world, I said I just
go there now.
I just do it now.
Then I’m here and I said
I’ve specified
the period next year,
but I want
to drive now.
That was Lucky Love.
The fourth episode of Soulfighters.
The toxic tantra.
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others very quickly.
I thought I was perverse and
nobody should know that, otherwise
I would be thrown out and
locked away.
I am Frank and in my podcast
The question I try to listen
to people first.
You have seen me
crying and looking
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help, they did nothing.
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